Monday 18th April 2005
Sponsor me to do a parachute jump!
I hate you for doing this to me. You have made me feel worthless, unloved, alone. I am paranoid because of you, and I will never find happiness with a man.
He who can not, will not love me. He who ignores me, pretends I will go away, vanish. He who hopes.
This is your doing, and you will not undo it. The more you cower away, the more I hate you, the further I sink in. No words can save me now.
I am unclean, tarnished, destroyed by your silence. And the silence of others confirms my worth.
I could have been everything, but you made me nothing.
I hate you.
Got myself a pack of jelly tots yesterday... what a disappointment. They are much stickier than they used to be.